A Small Life

Consider this. Imagine that. What if? There is a definitive moment in Kathleen Kelly’s (played by Meg Ryan’s character in “You’ve Got Mail”) thinking. She says, “sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life, well, valuable but small and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven’t been brave.”

So much of what I see is like something I read in a book, shouldn’t it be the other way round?” I think about the last time I asked myself such a life defining question and I know the answer. Not in a long while. And I wonder, does it matter, or even should it? And I uncomfortably acknowledge inwardly, it does and it should.

I haven’t been brave lately, not like I used to be and I wonder in part if some of the knocks I’ve taken over the years have something to do with that, or is that simply a comfortable though not entirely plausible excuse I’m using to wrap myself up in cotton wool? Probably. And what about you? Why haven’t you been brave lately? When do we lose our fearlessness? More importantly, why?

Larry popped by earlier, on his way through. Enters by his usual entrance, the missing 14th paling on the back wooden fence. He’s moving westward, “moving” being the operative word, I think he has a ‘blue’ (aussie slang for cat-fight) on his mind. I saw the look on the other poor blighter’s face, he’s not happy at the prospect! The backyard resembles Grand Central with all its coming and goings, mostly goings. Brave souls.